fuck

shet! im supposed to be writing something about my fucking brother.. sigh.. i hate him.. anyway tinamad na ko mag type..

i hate him.. i only hope he dies early.. early as in tommorow maybe.. :) hahaha! what a sucker

same ground

Self denial
Is a game so strange i never really should've wanted
Til there was you
Cause i have learned that love was beyond
What human can imagine
More it clears
The more i gotta let you go

My love
It's been a long time since i cried
And left you out of the blue
It's hard
Leaving you the way
When i never really wanted to

Self denial
Is a game so strange i never really should've wanted
Til there was you
Cause i have learned that love
Is a word just thrown
A litlle bit too much of this
Excuse to fill this infinite of desire
And never ever have to fade

Cause what i don't understand
Is why i'm feeling so bad now
When i know it was my idea
I could've just denied the truth and lied
Now why am i the only one standing stranded
On the same ground

If all else fail
Would you be there to love me?
When all else fails
Would you be brave to see right through me?

what?

i saw a celebrity wannabe at the wtc today.. the ones you see on tv joining artista search.. sigh.. i just have to say.. "ganun na ba kabilis makapasok sa showbizniz???"

screwed?

i just might be screwed.. this person borrowed my fone..
makikitext coz sun siya and im still loyal to globe.. well anyway..
my inbox.. lots of things in there.. i dont delete conversations very often so its filled with those..

yup.. that person probably read something she shouldn't have..
we were at the lib.. the person borrowed it.. i left to talked with some people outside so i went out..
then the next thing i know they were coming out too.. we met outside she returned my fone..

then suddenly..(shit!)
there was one.. but i really dont know if she read it though..
something about the parinig they made when i didn't go with them to dm.. (shit!)

but do i care?
uhmm.. yes..
maybe i do..
for now..
not until our project is over!

if they hate me for that then i dont give a shit really..
but if they do hate me.. just hope they let me know..
so that everything would be fair..
they fail me at the peer evaluation.. well il fail them too!
they say bad things about me.. then ill say more bad things than any of them can ever handle..

and now.. im left here thinking.. what if they got lucky and found my blog?
DEEP SHIT!!!

OKAY! so now im reconsidering if i should post this or not.. this blog is supposed to contain days that really sucked.. including everyone involved in making my life harder, i dont think they can make my life hell coz ive already been here in hell for so long..
thinking how long before i could free myself from continuously hating people and the unfair cruel world we live in..
how long before i could break free from this bondage..

should i stop writing bad stuff?
maybe i should..
maybe its the right thing to do..
but then again.. how do i keep all this anger, despair, or whatever you call it inside?
well..
its simple..
i just cAn't...

changes

there has been last minute changes in the groupings.. we are now ten in a group then the "hopeless dumb guy" with a crush on my friend and the other "dumber guy" fat ass transfered to another group giving us two really bright girls in exchange.. whooooo! not only that.. with the package comes two other guys

one manyak (nothing wrong with that, all guys are manyak they just pretend their not).. and the other one uhmm.. who cares!
the "bright" girls.. one fatty.. one even fatter lol! (i dont think anyone in our group likes her).. our group.. wow just gets better everyday!

then this afternoon they went to divisoria in search for ideas for our entrep.. obviously i didn't go.. they dont need me there anyway.. besides they have law classes during saturdays and i dont (hope they fail lol!)
then it was 3 in the afternoon.. the girl who always says yes to any argument texted me.. i dont know if you could classify it as a quote..
"a true friend is someone who is there for you when he'd rather be somewhere else."
too short for a regular quote no?
parinig pa.. il fail them on the peer evaluation..
joke hehe im not that bad!

unexpected

and now its time again for those oh so enjoyable group meetings! whooohooo!!! so much fun.. (yeah right! so much shit that is!)
we had this useless unproductive meeting this morning.. and as usual i was grouped with the usual people..
3 girls.. one dumb (need i say more? she's so dumb).. one that agrees on ANYTHING you say (gumagawa naman eh kaya ok lang).. and one i can say is average (its usually me and her who finishes the paper over the internet.. sleepless nights)..
5 guys.. one dumb (this guy has this really big crush on mah friend.. but.. sorry dude no chance!).. one dumber (let me just say.. USELESS).. one even dumber (FAT ASS).. and one almost above average??? (this guy doesn't fit in does he?)
and of course me.. the smartest haha! 8 of us.. a big group huh?

the almost average guy was saying how he was so good in doing those projects.. told us a couple of stories on how he did the past projects all by himself without any help from his stupid useless groupmates and then getting really high grade for it..
wow.. damn! didn't know you were a doer! he doesn't look anything like a smart hardworking serious kid.. its definitely a surprise for me..
when we were doin the groupings.. and they were giving me all those sign languages to include the big guy on my left (i almost typed "on my right" that could have been scary coz on my right is a girl haha).. i was thinking "my pondo na tayo! good choice.. lots of moolah!" (well..ok, maybe its only me thinking this) as you can see we need money for our entrepreneurship class..hehe but i know my honorable groupmates wont allow that to happen especially now that they see him as an essential commodity to our groups success.. but hey you still have ME!!! don't forget about ME.. his worth is yet to be proven! im already certified!

it was unexpected.. dont judge a book by its cover (how new can i get! jesus! this saying has been there like forEVER!).
that's what i learned this week.. he wasn't the only one who surprised me.. i ended up knowing 2 more people who are opposite of what people might think about them at first sight.. wow.. didn't know there were such people in our school..
what a shocker!

bunghole

fuck you bernard... because of you i failed my test kanina... get lost you monstrous piece of shit!

suntok sa buwan

Hindi mo ba alam
Damdamin koy pinagtakpan
Makasama kay suntok sa buwan

Di mo nga alam
Mundo mo ngay iyong tignan
Kung ganyan, walang pupuntahan

Hindi ko to gusto
Pero wag kang lalayo

Itanong mo sa akin
At tatanungin ko rin
Kung ikay aamin
Lahat ay gagawin

Di mo napapansin
Kailangan mo akong dinggin
Di habang buhay ikay aantayin

Itoy aking hiling
At sana naman ay tanggapin
Ng puso koy di nabibitin

1st impression

does first impression really last? maybe it does.. this friend of mine texted me..

"lam mu 22o pla ung frst impresion lsts. kc nung 2nd day ng hs inindian n kmi n relus..c jo nmn d p kmi clos ang kepo na, ask kng bkt dw ako tnwag s ofice, kkkilala p lng nmn nun, tpos layo ng seat nya..hehe inisnob ko lng dw cya..kaya pala til now ganun p rn."

relus still vanishes to thin air as to this moment.. an escape artist/magician.. always ready to disappear hehe
jo.. machismis.. kepo means pakielamera (db?).. there was this time when i got the chance to talk to her in the computer lab.. she was talking and tellin me all sorts of stuff.. we werent really close.. but she's close naman ata with my bro.. i think.. and she's the bestfriend of a big snob too..
then the one who texted me.. a SNOB.. well that says it all.. :)

syet

bat ganun ang ibang tao pagtapos gumawa ng project wala ng kilala.. kalimutan na.. tulad nitong 4 na taong kilala ko di na namamansin.. tangina niyo.. nasa iskul nanaman ako nagiinternet.. ngyon umaga lang tangina un isa kasama un gf na ata un d ku sure kung sinagot na siya pero bagay naman sila eh.. parehas silang gago parehas walang pakinabang.. parehas din silang walang ginagawa pag my project.. sana magsama pa kayo ng matagal para sabay din kayo mamatay.. tapos kanina lang rin tadong babae yan sinaran ako ng pinto sa elevator.. eh derederetso kc ako maglakad bumangga un shoulder ko sa elevator (sa loob ko tangina nito d mo ba ko nakita kc ikaw nakita kita!) buti nalang d naipit un ulo ko hehe nakakatawa siguru un pero buti di nangyari.. pero siguru ok din na maipit nalang sana un ulo ko kc baka matawa nalang din ako at di nagagalit ng ganito.. umagang umaga pa naman at first day ko sa pagpasok ng tth class ko kc bumalik na ng pinas un prof ko para sa nagiisang subject ko today..

prosti

kahapon nuod ako ng yspeak.. cympre PRO ako, ok lang naman un prostitution para sa tuition.. msyado lang nagmamalinis un mga anti.. c katherine luna ay isang plastik.. c jen rosendal nagcomment pa na di raw cia bababa sa ganun level.. e boldstar siya db? ano pinagkaiba nun? cia for the sake of ART??? e para san pa ang implants nya? ang lalaki nun ah! para masarap magpabreast feed pag my baby na siya? db ginawa nya un para masarap magpabreast feed sa mga customer? pero cguru tama din sinabi niya kc siya big time na cguru.. mga rich lang ang makakaafford sakanya.. hmmm.. mataas nga naman pala talaga ang level nya, high class prosti naman pala.. my isa nakakatawa eh comment din bago magbreak.. d ko kilala pero artista daw.. pwd naman daw mag modeling basta my beauty and brains hahaha.. brains? cgurado ka??? OK basta sabi mo eh! mga moralista walang mga kwenta.. wala silang ginawa kundi lalong ibaba ang mga pumapasok sa ganun work.. e my ginagawa ba sila para tumulong? tsaka di nila pwde husgaan ang mga un dahil di nila kilala ang mga un.. ano ba ang paki nila? katawan nila un.. alam nila ang pinapasok nila.. msyado kasing nagmamagaling mga moralistang nagmamalinis.. wala kayong ginawa kundi magreklamo.. cge magreklamo kayo hanggang mamatay na kayo wala parin magbabago.
hindi niyo alam kung ano ang situasyon nila.. di niyo dinaranas ang dinaranas nila.. bkt kayo makikialam? sino kayo para sabihin ano ang mas makakabuti sa kanila? nagbabait baitan pa kayo.. parang lang yan sa situasyon ng mga nagsusuicide.. pag my nagpakamatay sasabihin ang tanga nagpakamatay.. pero wala naman kayong karapatan dahil di nyo alam ang situation niya.. alam mo ba ano ang iniisip niya bago nia iputok un baril? sabi pa nila madami naman ibang trabaho.. ano mas gusto mo.. snatcher holdaper or prosti na nananahimik naghahanap buhay para mabuhay? wala daw respeto sa katawan ang mga nagpoprosti.. sila din naman walang respeto sa personal na buhay ng mga prosti db? walang pakialamanan! ayusin niyo un sarili niyong buhay.. mga moralista kasi cguru nasasarapan na my buhay na mas miserable kesa sa kanilang sariling mga buhay.. isama mo na ang simbahan! tignan niyo sarili niyo dahil madami din naman kayong problema sa loob..
ang simbahan walang ginawa kundi makialam at magmagaling! pati mga contraceptives ayaw.. pagamit niyo kaya yan sa mga malilibog na pare ninyo para d makabuntis! ang pinakaayaw kong pakikialam nila un sa death penalty.. dapat sa mga criminal pinapatay.. tanga rin kasi ang gobyerno nagpapaepekto sa simbahan nagmamalinis.. kung ako ang gobyerno papatay ako ng isa araw araw.. e d ok db? ubos ang tao sa bilibid.. e d bababa pa ang gastos nila dun at d na sila magsisikip sa loob.. e kasi walang pinapatay eh.. kung pwd lang il burn down the facility para tepok na lahat!
onga pala un sa show din sabi kung dapat bang i kickout mga prostituition girls and boys.. si katherine ang bilis makasagot.. OO daw.. pucha tangina ka! talagang feel na feel nya ang pagcontra sa mga nag prostituition.. e dahil lang dun papatalsikin mo? pag yan pinatalsik mo ano na mangyayari sa buhay niya? ang mangyayari maghahanap yan ng school.. ok yun.. eh panu kung d na pumasok ng eskwelahan yan? e d nakagawa ka ng prosti for life dahil sa pagkickout sa kanya.. pagkinickout mo masisira lahat ng pinagsacripisyohan niya.. masisiraan ng loob tapos nyan baka magprosti na talaga yan panghabang buhay.. dapat ngang tulungan db? sbi pa ni luna.. siya daw nagdancer para sa mga kapatid niya d raw para sa sarili.. haha ulol! ano pinagkaiba nun na magprosti ka o machodancer para pagaralin ang sarili mo at para makatulong sa magulang? parehas lang naman un na ginawa mo dahil alam mong makakatulong ka sa pamilya mo! tapos kahihiya daw ng pamilya un nagprosti.. dapat sila ang mahiya dahil d nila nagawa ang tungkulin ng magulang para pagaralin ang mga anak! ikakahiya ng lipunan ang sa una palang eh kasalanan na ng gobyerno?
un mga youth na contra sa prostituition lalo na mga babae.. sa tingin ko takot lang sila na baka boyfriend nila pumatol sa ganun.. kaya contra talaga sila ng contra.. malamang kasi gusto nila sila lang ang tinitira ng mga bf nila.. :)

love song =)

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

aholes

nasa school ako.. nagiinternet.. tapos my pumasok na mga puta.. wala lang.. naasar lang ako.. mga puta kasi na kala mo sinong mga magagaling..

twister fries

twister fries 45 pesos na.. dati 30+ lang db? ewan actually i really don't know how much it was before but i don't think it was 45 hehe.. maybe next time it will be 50 pesos na!

julie

si julie cooper ng the o.c. kamuka si kyle minogue db? ewan pero tuwing nakikita ko siya sa show eh nakikita ko si kyle.. at pagnakikita ko naman si kyle eh nakikita ko naman si julie.. ewan ko! anyway its a nice show.. and i have a feeling season ender un pinalabas last week (nagmamagaling nanaman ako).. kc la na si ryan.. replay kaya mamaya un show? ewan ko lang.. hope not

enjoy din watch un 3blind dates eh no? pero mas ok parin un blind date sa etc db.. kasi dun la naman epal na sulpot ng sulpot di tulad sa 3blind dates hehe pero ok din naman un show dito sa abc5 kasi puru ma L din mga nakukuha nila hehe which make things more fun.

ken-san

pinanuod ko uli ung rurouni kenshin ova2.. pangatlong beses na hehe, nakakalungkot ung movie.. sa totoo lang mas naaantig ako sa mga anime kesa sa mga tunay na mga taong nagiinarte lang sa screen.. nakakalungkot talaga na wala na si kenshin.. iniwan na nya tayo at c kouri din.. sigh.. sana nga lang ay may bagong series na gawin hehe andyan pa naman un anak nilang si kenji para ituloy ang lakbay.. :)

tubig

sa wakas nagbalik na uli ang tubig! pagkatapos ng halos 4 na araw na walang tubig.. sa wakas makakaligo narin uli ako hehe! sa wakas nagbalik na rin ang twister fries sa mcdo.. sarap talaga

sponge cola

Bumaba ako sa jeepney
Kung saan tayo'y dating magkatabi
Magkahalik ang pisngi nating dal'wa
Nating dalawa

Panyo mo sa aking bulsa
Ang amoy mo'y naroon pa rin
Tawa nati'y humahalay
Sa init nating dalawa

Subalit ngayo'y wala na
Ikaw ay lumayo na

Naaalala ko ang mga gabing nakahiga sa ilalim ng kalawakan
Naaalala ko ang mga gabing magkatabi sa ulan

Kulay nang iyong ngiti
Tikwas ng iyong buhok
At ang lambot ng iyong labi
Iyong labi

Kahit anino mo sa malayo
Ay nais masulyapan
Upang mapawi
Ang lamig

tanga kasi

ang tanga tanga ng mga tao.. nawala lang ang mga testimonial kung ano ano na ang ginagawa.. post daw sa bulitin (bullshit).. d naman totoo un kc dati nangyari na rin yan.. sigh.. gusto ko clang padalahan ng message at sabihin sa kanila "nasan ba ang utak mo? tanga!" siguru ganun lang talaga sila dahil gusto nila ipakita ang madaming testi nila.. padamihan db? ganun naman ang friendster eh padamihan ng friends padamihan ng testi.. la ka kwenta kwenta..

nice

Alaala ni Batman

Bale 1986 noong una kong nakilala si batman
wala pang abs-cbn noon sa BBC-2 pa noon eh
panahon ni Marcos na malapit nang mamatay
wala rin si kris aquino
wala pa si boy abunda
sikat pa si herman moreno noon eh
sabi ko, "shet ang galing nito ah"
natulala ako noong una kong napanood si batman
"shet ang galing nito" sabi ko sa sarili ko
"ang galing galing galing ng itsura ni batman"
parang kinatam ang mukha
ang galing ng costume
umuumbok ang dibdib
pero di pa rin bakat ang utong
ang galing ng gadgets niya
ang gara ng kotse
ang ganda-ganda ng bahay
ang galing-galing mag-Ingles
ang galing mangarate
actually, pulbos nga ang lahat ng kalaban niya eh
palagi ko siyang pinapanood tuwing hapon
palagi akong nakikipag-away sa katulong namin
dahil gusto niyang manood ng LotLot and friends
atsaka That's Entertainment
pero ako isa lang ang gusto kong panooring
isa lang ang idol na idol na idol na idol ko talaga


bale idol na idol na idol na idol ko talaga si batman
di bale na si robin kasi parang bading
ano kaya ang relasyon nila ni Batman?
pero idol ko talaga noon si batman eh
parati ko siyang dinodrawing
parati ko siyang ginagaya
lahat ng mga bagay na batman gustong-gusto ko at meron ako
yung t-shirt ko Batman
yung lunchbox ko Batman
yung pencil case ko
yung panyo
yung sumbrero
yung toothbrush
yung brief ko lahat yun batman
mahal na mahal ako ng tatay ko
kasi kahit mahirap lang kami
parati niya ako binibilhan ng mga batman na bagay
pero minsan gusto ko talaga ng Batmobile na laruan
nagpabili ako sa kanya
sabi ko "Tay bili niyo naman ako ng Batmobile "
pero katatanggal niya lang sa trabaho noon
kaya wala siyang pera
kasi kasali ata siya sa union nagwala sa picket line
kaya yun natanggal
kaya gumawa na lang siya ng mga karag-karag na mga lata ng sardinas
at binutasan na lang at kinabitan ng tansan
at doon ko nalaman ang ibig sabihin ng pagmamahal


at lumipasa na nga ang mga taon
at si batman ay halos tuluyan nang naglaho sa aking alaala
ngunit sa isang madilim na sulok ng aking kamalayan
alam kong naroon pa rin si Batman
isang tahimik na anino nakabalabal sa dilim at mysterio
sa loob ng aking utak at kuwarto
at mula noon ay nag-iba na nga ang ihip ng hangin
nagulo na ang ikot ng mundo
kumupas na ang kulay ng buhay
dumaan ang mga kasintahan
ang mga asawa, ang mga taong akala mo'y kaibigan
yun pala'y mga tarantado
mga artistang araw-araw mong napapanood sa TV na mga bobo
mga politikong bobo
mga trabahing maliliit ang sweldo
isang milyong bundok ng mga problema
isang malaking tambakan ng hinanakit
isang mundo ng hinagpis
hindi ko na matagalan
hindi ko na matiis
hindi ko na kaya


ngayon hindi ko na talaga kaya
hindi ko na kaya hindi ko na talaga kaya
may narinig akong putok mula sa kaibuturan
ng aking utak
bumigay na ang tali
sumabog na ang bulkan
nabasag na ang pula
kaya ngayon isang madilim na madilim na gabi
ako ay narito na sa isang mataas na mataas na building sa AYala
ang sarap ng hangin na umiihip-ihip sa aking kapa
nakataas na ang aking mga kamay
nakataas na ang aking mga kamay
malapit na akong lumipad
malapit na akong lumipad
malapit na akong lumipad
malapit na akong lumipad
Lipad Batman Lipad
lumipad ka lumipad ka
lumipad ka papuntang langit lumipad ka
nakataas na ang aking mga kamay lumipad ka
lumipad ka nakataas na aking mga kamay
tapos bigla kong naisip hindi nga pala lumilipad
si Batman hindi nga pala lumilipad
si Batman
kaya paalam malupit na mundo
paalam...


hehe got this from somewhere.. lyrics daw from the album of radioactivesago project.. it made me smile

its 8:33

kitty passed away na.. its my friend's doggie.. its really sad even though i only saw her? wait.. him? shit i dont know kitty's gender.. i only saw her pics.. anyway kitty is still the cutest db friend?

i went to the dentist today.. im undergoing some dental procedure kasi hehe! il be going back every tue for probably the next 2 months.
i wont be going to school tomorow.. i only have 1 subject.. and my prof on that subject is absent.. she's in the states doin some work. i think she'll be back on the 15th! just imagine a week more w/o a prof? coolness!!
extreme martial arts on discovery.. really cool.. love that show. i had watched it already before.. then i saw it again last week i think and ended up watching it two more times hehe!

i watched the grudge last sunday? sunday ba un sa gma? yah un nga hehe.. it was ok.. i wasn't that scared.. maybe if i watched it in a theatre like i did with the ring (jap version! duh? the english version was so so so stupid!) then maybe it could have been really scary.. i watched it when everyone else was sleeping so the volume was a bit low hehe.. the scene that kinda freak me out a lot was the one when they were eating in this place then the freaky kid was under the table then she looks down and saw the really freaky kid.. ohhhh.. its hair raising.. well at least for me it was the freakiest scene in the movie. the phone was being shown too at abs at that time.. so i switched channels everytime ju-on hit a break.. i thought the phone was scarier.. although i didn't see much of the movie since my intention really was to watch gma.. well maybe next time! is there a ju-on 2? i dont know if i already have early signs of alzeimer's! i thought i heard about it before.. or maybe it was already shown and i didn't even know! im so late when it comes to movies since i really don't like going out much.. sigh!

pop

what POPS in your mind?

1. flowers :: sampagita
2. rain :: hugs.. lovers
3. sun :: hot
4. friendship :: plastikan
5. pencil :: monggol
6. long distance relationships :: hard
7. plastic :: people
8. bed :: sleep
9. government :: kerry. bush the biggest terrorist..
10. water :: life
11. blue :: tuna.. i love tuna
12. braces :: vampire.. erika my friend looks like a vampire and she has braces
13. love :: doesn't keep you from your dreams
15. school :: uhmm.. ck.. no, nevermind
16. family :: wrecked
17. kiss :: love or lust?
18. survey :: marketing research
19. friendster :: testimonials
20. mc donalds :: twister fries.. i love twister fries
21. california :: maki
22. yellow :: curry
23. finger :: fuck u
24. honey :: apple cider vinegar?
25. cell phone :: snatcher!
26. eagle :: mulawin?
27. pillow :: sleep sleep sleep
28. boxers :: shorts
29. lipstick :: ????
30. boracay :: sex
31. nursing :: wipe that ass!
32. color :: green
33. white :: undies
34. movies :: ju-on
35. peanuts :: yum, i love nuts
36. yawn :: sleep.. i love sleeping
37. health :: healthy options
38. mouse :: snake.. our snake eats rats..
39. makati :: greyhound.. go and shop there people hehe
40. teacher :: manyak
41. angelo dela cruz :: angelito
42. separation :: usher.. one of his songs separated i think is the title
43. ? :: ?
44. underwear :: sex?
45. air plane :: crash
46. occasion. :: new year
47. tongue :: lick it
48. jeepney :: lung cancer.. pollution
49. kwek-kwek :: seriously? ok.. pussy
50. magical :: relucio.. she's the greatest escape artist ever hihi