its gone

i dont wana hurt anyones feelings.. but the truth is i dont have the feelings i used to have anymore..

its sad..
u may get hurt.. ive been hurt too before..
remember?
move on.. ive moved on and im happier now than i ever was..
so please can you stop?

i guess it wasn't true love after all..
people change.. ive changed..
my priorities are all in place now.. it was once disoriented.. reshuffled..
but now.. ive straightened it all out again..
for once in my life ive actually got plans.. and i will not have anymore changes whatsoever in my plans.. this is it.

lets just move on..

can't you leave the past behind?

sometimes we keep on pushing people away knowing they'll be back.. but be careful whom you push away coz 1 day you will realize how much they mean to you only to find out you can never pull them back..

ive changed.. its a new me..

im not that person anymore..
im not him.

cramming

its cramming week once again.. wooooooo!

yesterday i was up almost til 2am.. damn paper!

monday na kc submittion!

yeah i got a 64 on our 1st math quiz after the midterms.. yeah! i was expecting worst actually.. and having this goddam grade.. wow it made me happy! and yeah i failed the 3rd exam too.. haha i have not passed a single quiz since the start of the class, only passed the midterm exam which i got a slammin 92.. yeah! nway its a good thing we still have another quiz coming up..

hope is not yet lost.. hey i actually still have a goddam chance here!

damn it! we have no water for 2 days now.. fuck fuck fuck!

its midnight now.. got to get some goddam sleep..
coz my eyes.. goddamit my eyes! there were lots of nerves.. all red.. i think its goddam computer strained eyes..
i have scary eyes.. it has red veins all over..
sigh..

zzzzz

watched tv all day..
woke up.. watched this korean movie.. masyadong ma drama.. too tragic..
watched power zone.. den nakatulog ako.. woke up watched gattacca den extreme engineering/the buzz/sfiles (lipatlipat hehe) den naks.. den lamon.. shower.. and here i am now..
my test uli bukas sa math.. pesteng math yan.. naiwan ko pa lahat ng notes ko sa school.. ano na ang gagawin ko ngayon! it seems that failure is inevitable.. sigh..
sympre don't lose hope coz goddammit i dont wanna fail..
i wont go to my first class.. il take that time to study nalang..
and the pressure.. mdyo kinakabahan na ko sa mga projects.. dammit somebody give me some stresstabs!

go to..

my fucking brother just got home.. fuck him.. i hope he dies na.. die asshole die!!

go to hell! no.. wait.. thats where im heading..
ohh dammit! go to your Creator nalang..

1 lang

if i had the power.. il implement a 1 child policy for certain types of families..
we need to control our goddam population!!
this is why the poorer gets poorer.. its their fault, they shoudn't blame the gov't for not being able to generate enough jobs.. its their fault! bearing more than they can handle..
we really need to control our population..
i remember this stupid prof in our psychology class.. she sed we were being told that we are becoming over populated.. its not true! if we gather all the people in the world we can fit in daw in just one of the states of america i think (well i forgot already coz its like 2 years ago i think).. den she sed we should go and multiply.. cge lang daw go lang ng go gawa lang ng babies.. have plenty of babies daw.. what a bitch..
if she ever becomes the president il kill myself.. coz then the philipines will truly be hopeless..
controlling our population is so important.. were the 13th ata db most populated country in the world.. WTF?!
the church goddamit the church is against pa sa contraceptives.. grabe talaga.. go and multiply my ass!
sigh..
yah its a great thing our peso is getting stronger.. but how long can they maintain such gains? our economy is getting better.. we just got removed from this blacklist of top money laundering countries ata.. things are getting better db.. but its not enough.. population.. wala na ngang pera un mga poor people (duh? poor nga) tapos dami pang babies.. irresponsible no? maybe they deserve to suffer din.. kasi its their own doing din eh.. they cant control it kasi God created sex this way.. well kasalanan kaya nino un db to make sex so pleasurable.. (il burn in hell, i know dat already)
kaya nga the gov't should impose stricter rules regarding population control.. if i was in power.. il kill 3 criminals a day, hmm around 90 a month (thats nice).. para kumonti naman ang tao sa kulungan.. db.. clean up prisons that are getting congested anyway..
nway if north korea really has nuclear weapons.. hmmm.. music to my ears.. :)

L

just finished watching dis korean movie..
dis is the 2nd korean film ive watched.. both romantic comedies.. i had stopped watching dis type of films before.. coz it makes you want to find someone to love.. and i rily dont have time for it.. i have my priorities.. my goals.. and something like love is somewhere at the back row..
i actually borrowed another korean film.. same genre but its not with me yet.. so i have to wait.. its a perfect way to forget those goddam projects!
later on discovery.. hehe.. "why intelligence fails" i like the sound of that.. il try to watch it later..
damn bush! he's targeting iran and syria next i believe.. war again.. oh boy.. someone's ought to teach that guy a goddam lesson! last week i read this article about cuba.. it made me happy.. i think they dont like bush too.. good news.. it really lightened my goddam mood.. :)

fuck math

shhhiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitttttttttt!!!!

i failed our math quiz AGAIN! shit!

shit! i need to get like 90 on our next quiz and another 90 on the final exam to pass!
thats like turning goddam water into goddam wine!
goddammit!! im so stupid.. shit..
this really sucks..

whatever

yey.. i think tomorows goddam math quiz is cancelled.. im not sure though coz the other section said they were told its gonna be on friday instead.. hehe! well that was my initial reaction.. but now.. im thinking if it is even a good thing.. coz on friday i have my entrep and hube exams.. hmmm.. i guess its no big deal, i dont open my notes at home anyway.. like the last time we were going to have a math quiz (yup the one i failed last week).. i took home my notes but didn't lift a single page haha.. math is incredibly boring..

we had a goddam miting again kanina.. haha! it was 10 and i was looking for them.. i was pissed (no surprise anymore). so i texted 1 of them and told her.. im available only up til 1130.. haha!
im not crazy! im not gona stay in school until noon.. i know them well enough haha!
anyway they asked me why.. and i just told them my lil blacksheep has an appointment with the dentist and im going with her haha! i need to think of more of this excuses haha! i was happy to get home early.. food was good and thank (god? of course not!).. thanks to my goddam excuse i was spared from a stupid meeting and most of all from spending money (its such an unneccessary expense.. at least for me)..

you know how they ruined my day last week.. i had my day all planned out then they told me we had a meeting..
i know its not a bad thing to meet for projects.. but im so lazy and i dont like it when they speak their minds (haha jk)..
the day that was ruined..
1-2 get home
2-3 lunch.. tv..
3-5 sleep
5-8 tv (again)
8-10 ym
this was my planned day the day they destroyed it with a meeting!

isn't there gonna be a WOT movie? i forgot where i read it but i think their planning to do a movie.. hmmm.. that was one reason i bought the book (haha) and because my lil blackshep has this friend and she's crazy over this book.. i think she had read all 10 books already.. what a pyscho! anyway.. still cant find time to read coz honestly.. i get distracted from all the projects and i dont like the distractions when im reading something.. so ill have to put it on hold i guess.. sigh..