weirdo

for the record i did not post the comment "pathetic christians!"
i know im the devil but i wont post something like that on someone elses blog.
i did post the first one with the same nickname though.

God bless the Philippines.

liar

tina, that girl i liked. she said she did not have friendster. i searched and her profile actually does not appear, i thought "yah maybe she doesnt have one.." did i ask her if she had one? wait i cant seem to remember but her friend told me she doesnt have one.. hmmmm anyway..

and now here i am with nothing to do.. i clicked and clicked and guess what.. she has one, and has been a member since dec 2003.

why lie? or did she?
my memory is all fucked up.. or did it get all screwed up when i saw her profile?

boring

just got home..
the driver of the service i ride is always in a hurry.. texting me at 3am.. i dont know if he even knows that i logoff at work at 3am.. so i cant possibly be there in a second. the other thing is that the people that also rides the same shuttle service as me gets off at work earlier.. their from another project, although i think we all work on the same floor. our supervisor is also makulit, always having to meet us after work to tell us how we did, and im sure when this happens this makes our driver even more restless.

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the team is planning to go to galera next week..
as expected im not going. its just the big kj in me.

i have reasons.. reasons im not gonna tell them..
i just told them i have personal reasons.. stupid isnt it.
i told them.. next time ill go.
that is if there will be a next time..
which i hope there would be (really?)
yup.. part of me actually wants to go..
in the end im still this loner who tries to avoid big groups and exists only for my family and a few people i trust.

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a message to the religious groups who are against the 'the davinci code' movie: FUCK OFF SHITHEADS.

im not going to watch the movie..
because im not a fan of tom hanks, period. if it was someone else then yeah maybe il watch it.. someone like nicolas cage maybe. why do they have to get that old fart anyway.

happy?

the truth is.. im happy with whats going on with my life right now.. met new friends and its a shocker that i actually like them. im happy when im at work.. ive become friends with this 3 people and we eat together and take our breaks together..

and all this time i thought work would be such a horrible experience for me, for someone who is not so friendly. im having a great time. forget about high school where i thought of killing myself hundreds of times.. forget about college where people were all so fake and arrogant.

this right here is where i wana be.. with these people i never thought i would learn to like.. training is hard but im happy.

i wonder if its still gonna be the 4 of us.. whether we will pass training or not. questions that bother me.. the thought of one of us not making it makes me sad.
i pray that that does not happen, cause it'll never be the same with one of us gone.

sigh.

V

this movie is killer. love it.

wreck

i have been working night shift for 3 weeks now.. and damn do i have a hard time trying to sleep sunday nights.. last week i slept around 11pm.. woke up 2am.. and stayed awake til 7am.. couldnt sleep and it pisses me off cause i wanna sleep at night when most people are sleeping too. the same thing happened this sunday/monday. my body is totally wacked.

read something in reader's digest and i thought it made sense.

"Do you have to love your job?

No.
love your children, your spouse and your country.
love your parents, your neighbor and your dog.
loving is too important an emotion to attach to the way you make a living.
But its OK to strive for satisfaction.."


watching episode 49 of full metal alchemist right now..
the show ended yesterday on gma7.. i was not able to watch the last 2 episodes before the ending. im watching it now on youtube. hehe.

edwin mccain - i could not ask for more

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments
I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
These are the moments I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
Every prayer has been answered
Every dream I have's come true
And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me

These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've got all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more than the love you give me
'Coz it's all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

I could not ask for more

what?

there is this girl at work who i find really cute.
you know.. its always the average looking girl with something special in them who gets me.
this girl, i love her voice.. its cute, sweet, and mature all at the same time.
i also like the way she moves.. she is just the cutest thing at work.
and not to mention, smart.
shes so lovable.
couldn't ask for more.
BUT.. the problem is that.. its unlikely that something nice is gonna happen because im this shallow bastard who is still bound by tradition.
its not because she already has a boyfriend.

i actually met his boyfriend just this saturday around 4 in the morning, we were going home when i saw her sitting alone outside our building. i was with 4 of my coworkers.. i saw her and i sat beside her and asked her why she was still there.. and she has the cutest expressions.. and thats when i knew she actually has a bf.

after that we all walked together to get our ride home.. then we saw this guy and we went home first (the 2 of them sat at a bench for a while).

while me and a coworker were waiting for a ride home.. they were walking our way because they have to cross the overpass.. so we met again. this time she introduced me and my coworker to the guy.

and whats this? she suddenly forgot my name?
no way..
yes she intentionally acted like she forgot my name..
i dont believe that she really forgot my name.
so i just introduced myself since she was playing dumb.
thats it, end of story.