beginning..

im starting to get annoyed with this person at work (well im still in training actually)

i have her number, she has my number. i actually did not want to give my number because im very selective (yah right! what an asshole no?)

a couple of weeks back, i was very unfortunate to have the same date to get a medical exam with her.. her cousin talked to me and asked me "are you taking the medical for ********?) i replied in tagalog.. "yah, blah blah blah"

that's when my misery began..
and as an anti-social jerk, its painful.. very very painful to be with someone who you dont like or you have just met and there is just no connection whatsoever.

that day we got a bus ride home.. i actually wanted to ride the mrt but since she insisted.. i just went with the flow. after some stupid small talk.. she said something like "paunahan tayo umuwi, text text nalang sino maunang makauwi."

no way im gonna goddam give you my number. im very discriminatory as you can see (i admit i can be an ass sometimes).
so i did not reply to her stupid line, nice try but sorry no number swapping for you today. she's totally not my type, totally.

last thursday we were signing the log sheet and she forgot to log off.. she ran back and guess what.. i was holding a pen about to sign and what did she do.. she snatched my pen right out of my hand and said "ako muna!".. and thats when i really really started not liking her. it really pissed me off and it showed on my face (although i did try to smile and act like everything is cool).

during our lunch (dinner) i sit with lf (her initials, not very cool girl to be with lol!), js (she's ok), and ns (he's ok).
its like this group thing, and its automatic we 4 sit together in the pantry.
and she says some of the lamest things ive ever heard in my entire sad life. so lame sometimes i just pretend im texting (yah texting at 12midnight!) or i pretend im not listening because i just dont know how to respond to her lame stories. i cant smile, i just cant smile when she says something and she gives a laugh.. its so not funny and i do try to smile but it really is so hard. thats why i decided just not to look at her when shes talking so that i could always pretend that my mind is occupied with something.

warning: its about to get dirty!
and her accent.. holy fucking shit..
i hate her accent..
it sounds so.. so.. not cute..
not sexy.. not cool.. not sweet..
not civilized? ughh i cant say the words that i realy want to say.. cause i feel that its personalan na (how do you say this in english?) and i dont want people reading this to think that im such a dick (although i am lol).

she is friendly and knowing me.. im like your worst enemy if your like so fucking friendly.

next week we will have our own desk to work on.. and our TL was the one who chosed who sits beside who. i just hope shes not close to my desk.

my message to her: mind your own shit damn it.

stupid

i feel like deleting a lot of testimonials.. this is so stupid im spending my afternoon with such useless stuff.

i only want the people that really matters to me to have a testimonial with me.
that means i would have to delete more than half of all my testimonials..

coz this folks who think knows me.. they dont have a fucking idea who i really am.
and this people who again think knows me also write all this shitty comments about me..
and reading it now, it makes me sick.

to delete or not to delete?
that is the question.

terminated

ive not checked friendster for more than a week already because i just did not have the time, work is crazy you know.

i checked it now and decided i wanna read my testimonials.. so i started reading.. smiled at some of them.. and then there was this person named banana.. had this testi on me saying something like "thanks for adding me here hope we could blah blah" that kind of shit people who think their SO fucking great say.

maybe i did add that person before.. that was when i was still the biggest phony in the world!
its different now.. i try not to be as phony as i was before.

anyway i deleted the testi and that person out of my friendster.

i feel like bashing someones friendster profile right now hehe!
here's one (i know this guy and i dont like him.):

Male, 21, Single
Interested in Meeting People for: Friends, Activity Partners
Hobbies and Interests:
girls, music, basketball, billiards, badminton, love sports, hanging out w/ friends
Who I Want to Meet:
girls:a sweet person, caring, malambing, thoughtful, simple lng, mabait, kalog, easy to get along with, happy, joyful,and many more...

i think this guy is you know.. he tries way too hard. you really have to emphasize the gender of who you want to meet? well unless you wrote on your "interested in meeting people for:" male and female then yeah sure label the sex so people dont get confused hahaha!

this guy has been dumped by girls like 10 times already and the thing is when he gets turned down he says all sorts of good and BAD things to his idiotic guy friends. what a big faker this guy (and his matha fucking friends). the effort this guy gives to be socially accepted..

and wow look at all those qualities he looks for in a girl.. thats a lot ..
and yah "happy" haha OF COURSE we wouldnt want girls who ask us guys to die with them like everyday right.. yah.. that makes a lot of sense doesnt it.

anyway.. this guy.. he sure is one impressive big fuck.

------edit------

whooowoowooow... there's another person saying the same crap on my testimonials.. whoow..
DELETE! DELETE! DELETE! i dont even know this fuck.

its not working

the music video is not working anymore..
boohoo.

my shift will change next week to a better time.. 7pm to 4am
better than my current sched of 4am to 1pm!
its crazy to get up 2 in the morning and get out of the house by 2:30!
although something interesting happened to me when i was riding this bus last thursday.. (its a secret. things do get crazy that early in the morning.)

oh well..
our computer crashed..
everything erased..
all the files..
all the porn of my big big brother.. booooooo..
all my korean songs too were all deleted.. another big booooooo.

munich

i watched munich today..

very nice movie.

there was this scene where they were going to assasinate these guys..
and this boy, who i believe is the son of the couple that they just killed, was holding this gun (he was shaking).. someone almost shot him but avner (eric bana) stopped the guy who was going to kill the boy..

i just thought that.. assasinating terrorists doesnt solve anything.. what more going into war? cause when you kill people, you leave behind their love ones.. and what would their love ones seek?

vengeance.

and this people will kill YOUR people because you killed THEIR love ones.. which is very understandable why they are doing that db?

the cylce continues.. and the killing will not stop.

i love the movie.. very nice.

love letter

this is a music video from the korean drama "love letter"
..love the song,
love the show..
its the best korean drama i have ever watched.

when i first heard this song i tried to find it but it was impossible for me because i didnt know who sang it and the title.. this series was shown a couple of years ago on gma7.. i wasn't able to watch the ending..
and a couple of years later, thanks to youtube i finally was able to watch the final episode!

its about this guy who is entering priesthood.. he falls in love with this girl.. add another guy to the story..
anyway, just watch it if you have the chance..
its a nice series and dont forget the tissue hahaha im joking.. or maybe not.. i did get teary eyed when i was watching this series.

west

do i listen to rap music?
no, i dont..
not unless its kanye west!

he's the best.