Saturday, February 25, 2006

deleted

woohooo! deleted 40+ people i didnt know from friendster.. im so tired of these phonies.. especially the ones who have like multiple accounts, i enjoyed deleting them the most.. goddam phonies!

i was such a big phony before i added beautiful girls i didnt know.. and now looking at them.. its amazing what adobe can do to beautify people.. i retained some pretty faces, i guess i cant entirely get rid of the phoniness inside me..

i was kinda surprised cause some of the people i thought were pretty before.. hmmm they are not so pretty after all.. so i deleted them all hahaha! :)

Friday, February 24, 2006

zzzzzzz

i couldn't sleep last night.. kept thinking of what could be if we were to be together..

i got the picture i was asking for.. kept looking at it yesterday..
after watching kim sam soon (yah i watch that koreanobela), i laid on my bed and tried to sleep at around 10:30..
i looked at my fone and saw that it was already 11:40 pm..
texted two people and joked that maybe she was thinking of this idiot who fell for her.. and that's why i couldn't sleep its because she was thinking of me too? (dream on i thought last night.. dream on calvin dream on..)

i looked at my fone again and my time read 12:20.. still couldn't sleep so i texted the two people again and said that the world has changed i should be the one sleeping and not them (i rarely stay up late, and everyone knows that im already asleep at 10pm)

..and finally after a while i drifted to dreamland.
woke up 4:50 lifted some weights..
took a shower 5:30
ate breakfast 6 and heard on the radio that classes wer cancelled for elementary and high school in metro manila..
6:20 got out of the house with my brother and sister..
6:30 got a cab..
6:55 heard the announcement on the radio that college level was also cancelled..
7:10 got to school to get a dvd i borrowed (april snow)..
7:20 me and my sister decided to go home..

its a little depressing.. how i wished classes werent cancelled.. i really wanted to see her even for just a while (isang sulyap lang pero wala..).


this is a song by Kamikazee
its titled NARDA
sigh..
the song of the moment.. and maybe the song that will be playin in my head everyday this month.


VERSE 1:
Tila ibon kung lumipad, Sumabay sa hangin ako'y napatingin
Sa dalagang nababalot ng hiwaga.
Mapapansin kaya sa dame ng yong gingawa
Kung kaagaw ko ang lahat may pag asa bang makilala ka


CHORUS:
Awit na nananawagan, baka sakaling napakikinggan,
Pag-ibig na palaisipan sa kanta na lang idaraan
Nag aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala,kahit sulyap lang darna


Ang swerte nga nman ni ding, lagi ka nyang kapiling
Kung ako sa kanya niligawan na kita
Mapapansin kaya sa dame ng yong gingawa
Kung kaagaw ko ang lahat may pag asa bang makilala ka


CHORUS:
Awit na nananawagan, baka sakaling napakikinggan,
Pag ibig na palaisipan sa kanta na lang idaraan
Nag aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala,kahit sulyap lang darna


Tumalon kaya ako sa bangin,para lang iyong sagipin
Ito ang tanging paraan para mayakap ka
Darating kaya... sa dami ng ginagawa
Kung kaagaw ko sila paano na kaya?


CHORUS:
Awit na nananawagan, baka sakaling napakikinggan,
Pag ibig na palaisipan sa kanta na lang idaraan
Nag aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala, kahit sulyap lang darna

Nag aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga tala, kahit sulyap lang darna

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

i know now

i finally know her name now.

its so weird cause monday my little sister's friend was looking at her wallet and i saw pictures.. so i borrowed the pictures from her..

the second picture blew me away.. then i told her she had 2 pretty friends.. i asked for the name of the one.. she told me "tina" i said what.. she said "tina"

then earlier today.. i was siting down with a friend (you know hu you are hihi) and she asked me if she was here..
i said no..
maybe she doesnt wait for the guy anymore, i said..
and then..
they came..
and i told my friend thats the girl..

she told me "si tina??!!!"
i said "what?"
and it struck me.. i knew that picture yesterday looked familiar..
it was her, i didnt noticed it because she looked prettier in the picture.. she was really pretty in the picture.. im actually asking someone for her picture right now hehe!

i find it weird.. i never thought i would ever know her name just because i have very few friends left in school (in short napagiwanan na ko ng panahon hehe) but someone out there wanted me to know.. hmmmm.. hahaha! (yah right!)

Sunday, February 19, 2006

viloria

i hope Brian Viloria wins his match with Jose Antonio Aguirre of Mexico..
good luck!

yes, i do not like Manny Pacquiao..
but i never said i did not support filipino boxers, this time a fil-am boxer that is.

im back

this is the third post of the day..
woke up 3 in the morning to surf for porn?
loving this dsl connection..
and now..
the fun is gone..

i have snapped..
and the angry guy is back.

sometimes i think its better if i just read the blogs that i commonly read and not venture out into the world outside that circle..

why?

because they plain p-i-s-s me off..
im sounding like this really shallow bastard again haha!

betrayal is a hidden blade.
watch your back guys.
you'll never know.

im really a good person inside, my family says i have a problem with my temper though.. my brother started using the word "snap" on me like, "mukang malapit ka ng magsnap" he knows me very well.. he knows how and what triggers the uncontrolable short bursts of anger.

what makes me a good person is that i want bad people to die or punished..
when i say bad people im talking about bad BAD people who kill, rape, steal, abuse.
isnt that nice?
and we should start from the TOP first so that these influencial dickheads wont be able to frame other people (innocent people) with their dirty work. start with the rich and influencial down to the simple snatcher..

lets say for example the recently busted drug den/supermarket/sexfordrugs place in Pasig city.
lets start with pasig mayor Vicente Eusebio down to the drug lords down to the police officers who protected the drug den down to the drug pushers and down to the very drug users.

kailan kailan kailan?

MYMP - kailan

Bakit kaya nangangamba
Sa tuwing ika'y nakikita
Sana nama'y magpakilala
Ilang ulit nang nagkabangga
Aklat kong dala'y pinulot mo pa
'Di ka pa rin nagpakilala

REFRAIN
Bawat araw sinusundan
'Di ka naman tumitingin
Ano'ng aking dapat gawin
Bakit kaya umiiwas

Binti ko ba'y mayroong gasgas
Nais ko lang magpakilala
Dito'y mayroon sa puso ko
Munting puwang laan sa 'yo
Maaari na bang magpakilala

REFRAIN
Bawat araw sinusundan
'Di ka naman tumitingin
Ano'ng aking dapat gawin

CHORUS
Kailan (kailan), kailan mo ba mapapansin ang aking lihim
Kahit ano'ng aking gawin, 'di mo pinapansin
Kailan (kailan), kailan hahaplusin ang pusong bitin na bitin
Kahit ano'ng gawing lambing, 'di mo pa rin pansin
AD LIB
Bakit kaya umiiwas
Binti ko ba'y mayroong gasgas
Nais ko lang magpakilala

REFRAIN
Bawat araw sinusundan
'Di ka naman tumitingin
Ano'ng aking dapat gawin

CHORUS
Kailan (kailan), kailan mo ba mapapansin ang aking lihim
Kahit ano'ng aking gawin, 'di mo pinapansin
Kailan (kailan), kailan hahaplusin ang pusong bitin na bitin
Kahit ano'ng gawing lambing, 'di mo pa rin pansin


i just stopped listening to "closer you and i" after 5 more repeats and now listening to this song that i really really like.
i really want to play music on my blog.. hmmmmm

closer you and i

Hey, there's a look in your eyes
Must be love at first sight
You were just part of a dream
Nothing more so it seemed
But my love couldn't wait much longer
Just can't forget the picture of your smile
'Coz everytime I close my eyes
You come alive

The closer I get to touching you
The closer I get to loving you
Give it a time
Just a little more time
We'll be together
Every little smile
That special smile
The twinkle in your eye
In a little while
Give it a time
Just a little more time
So we can get closer
You and I

Then could I love you more
So much stronger than before
Why does it seem like a dream
So much more so it seems
I guess I found my inspiration
With just one smile, you take my breath away
So hold me close
And say you'll stay with me now

The closer I get to touching you
The closer I get to loving you
Give it a time
Just a little more time
We'll be together
Every little smile
That special smile
The twinkle in your eye
In a little while
Give it a time
Just a little more time
So we can get closer
You and I


sigh.. this is probably the song that has been in my mind for almost two weeks..
why?
is it love? i dont know.. i think i just like her..
and i like people even more when someone's trying to get them away from me???
sounds psycho no?

it started at the library last sem..
as "feeling" as i am.. why do people look at me like they want me or something? (haha!) anyway this is a different story.. or maybe not...!?
i would be sitting at the inner part of the library and she would sit exactly opposite where im seated..
i noticed her there.. i looked at her.. she looked at me.. and that was it basically.
then it started happening more often..
my usual routine when im in school so damn early is to be at the library.. 7 oclock early!
4 to 5 times this kept happening and i kept noticing her more.. then i started thinking.. does this girl like me? cause why would she sit exactly in front of me when she can freely sit somewhere else? hmmmm... i ended up have having this fascination towards her.
at that time, i wasn't crazy about being in a relationship (not that i ever was in a normal one).
i just let it go.. (what?! was there even anything to let go haha! this line is total bullshit!)

last last last week someone started courting her..
i felt a little jealous.. im really weird, it seems i like people even more when their no longer single or are about to be in a relationship (haha)
an even weirder thing (or is it just plain stupid to not know?) is that i dont even know her name..
i dont know anything about her except i saw her once singing in an event in school.. and that she gets to school past 7..
she goes home 1130 during tth.. but last last week she stayed in school a little longer she stayed until 1..
she sometimes use a sling bag to school (no girl uses a sling bag right? no? right?).. and that just made me like her even more because i just felt how simple this girl is (which is the 2nd thing i look for in a girl)..
her hair is always down.. just below the shoulder length.. its not rebonded, not layered.. so simple no?
but this week, i didnt see her even once :(
too bad.


for a week now ive been wanting to have music play on this blog when it opens.. i just dont know how hehe!
this song.. its a classic isnt it?
and i started listening to this today at around 3:50am its now 4:32am on my clock (for some reason the time of post of this entry is different from the real time.. hmmm?)
:)

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

poor sick poor

From business world
Ad Lib
Greg B. Macabenta

...
Here is an attempt to simplify the complicated socio-political and economic situation in this country, the better for the filipino child to grasp it. just imagine reading this in a coloring book.

This is Gloria Macapagal Arroyo. she was #2 in the philippines. they called her vice president. #1 was joseph estrada. they called him president. they asked him to leave because of his vices. now gloria is president. now she has all the vices.

This is juan miguel arroyo. he is the husband of the president. he is also called philippine's 1st gentleman. that makes him the 1st vice of the philippines. they also call him Big Mike. that makes him the biggest vice of all.

The filipino people are a happy people. they love to tell jokes. one joke is that the name of gloria is arrovo. another joke is that she is the Panggulo ng Pilipinas. the filipino people laugh at these jokes. they laugh so hard, they forget that they are hungry and are supposed to be sad. in the end, it is gloria who has the last laugh.
this is the justice secretary. these are the officials of the military and the police. these are the members of congress. they are the basketball team of gloria. they play ball with gloria.

these are the 3 little pigs. they speak for gma. they say, "oink oink." thats pig language for, "gloria is the best."

In the basketball team, their job is to pass on the bola to the media and the people. this is noli de castro. he is vice president and is #2 in the philippines. he is supposed to be a member of the basketball team of gloria, but they make him sit on the bench. he doesnt know what to do and he likes it that way.

These are the filipino people. they are supposed to pay taxes. taxes are supposed to be used to build roads, bridges, airports, markets, schools, hospitals, and services that the people need. taxes are the money of the people.

Some filipinos pay taxes. many others do not pay. this is why money is not enough to pay for projects and services. the people blame the government. but the people are also to blame.

The politicians steal most of what little money there is. that leaves nothing for the projects and services. because of this, the government borrows money from other countries and which the politicians have been stealing.

In order to raise more money, the government has added more taxes for the people to pay. they call it VAT. in baseball, a bat is a club that you use to hit the ball. in the government, the VAT is a club used to hit the people. the VAT is supposed to bring more money to the government for the projects and services, and to pay for the foreign debts. the politicians steal most of that money, too.
That will leave only a little for projects and services, and only a little for the foreign debts.

So the filipino children will have to pay even more debts when they grow up.

These are the members of the political opposition. Gloria thinks they are like the Big Bad Wolf, always threatening, "we will huff and will puff and will blow your house." but the 3 little pigs think that all the huffing and puffing is hot air.

This is Frank Drillon. he is the president of the senate. gloria does not like him because he is very frank. gloria thinks he also wants to blow her house down. the 3 little pigs are assigned to take care of frank by making bola to the people.

Frank and the members of the senate are asking why the money of the people is being stolen by members of gloria's basketbal team. but the members of the team are good at defense and at passing the ball.

The members of the senate want to know what happened to the money that was supposed to be used for fertilizers to help the filipino farmers plant more crops in their farms. it is said that most of the money was stolen by gloria's basketball team.

The senate also wants to know about money that was supposed to be used for the North Rail project. again, it is said that it has been stolen. then, there is the money that former president Marcos stole. that stolen money has also been stolen.

The newspaper say all that stolen money was used to steal the election that made gloria president.

This is garci. garci was with the commission on elections. garci and gloria are phonepals. garci denies it. gloria admits it. people think garci helped gloria steal the elections.

The philippine commission on election is very efficient.
in India, the results of an election are known after 2 days.
in Taiwan, the results are known after 2 hours.
in the Philippines, the results are known 2 months before the elections.

This is a joke being told by the filipino people. they think it is very funny. they laugh and laugh. they laugh so hard, they forget that the joke is at their expense.

The senate also wants to investigate garci along with the other members of gloria's basketball team.

Gloria has given orders for them not to face frank and the senate. the order is called Four Six Four. gloria is afraid that the senators are only trying to blow her house down. it is a poor excuse and a sick one. that's why the order is also called Poor Sick Poor.

This is the supreme court. the members are the #1 judges in the country. they have been asked to decide on Poor Sick Poor. is it legal or not? but the supreme court has been slow to act. in basketball, it is called freezing the ball. for this reason, the political opposition thinks the supreme court is also part of gloria's basketball team.

The filipino people will make a joke about that, too. yes, filipinos are very funny and happy people. they love to laugh. they can laugh on an empty stomach.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

i dont believe

this girl in my psychology class is a bit wierd..
and i really like it, shes very real i think, she shows what she feels.

ok so our fucking psych prof was having this discussion one time about deja vu.. and she was saying people who experience it has this spirituality thing like your close to your god or something like that..

she asked this girl, "are you like that?"
the girl said, "i dont believe in god."
and wow that sure made me smile.. it really did.

and of course as expected from the pretentious whore,
she asked the class "who else does not believe in god? i promise it wont affect your grade."
"oh ok, well at least *toot* was brave enough to admit.."
our phony prof REALLY makes me laugh.

and then yesterday this weird girl (who i really like) blow her top off.. i dont know what happened but she sure was pissed.. this happened while our phony prof was giving us back our test papers and when her name was called she went in front and snatched her paper disrespectfully and damn i liked the way she just snatched her paper..

as usual our fat prof made this really phony statement
"*toot* whats wrong? having a bad day?"
she said "yes"
phony prof, "yeah a bad day huh.. well take it easy ok?"

kiss my freaking ass.. stop trying to be so caring and all.. she makes me sick i swear that phony professor.

happy valentines day everyone..
at school today there was this couple and the girl was like..
"nakakainis ka!"
"nakakainis ka!"
she was saying it while her boyfriend was approaching her with a bunch of roses..
what a goddam phony.