i phony

know what? i was copying some lines again from that book.. i typed in about a gazillion paragraphs already! then i got crazy i deleted everything! i wasn't in the mood all of a sudden.. im crazy. i really am.

finished the book though.. it was nice.. i thought the last chapters were touching especially the ones when he's with his little sister..
SHE KILLS ME! she really does!
so sweet and cute and nice.. i wish i had a sister like that.. but no! fate was rough with us and gave us a goddam blacksheep hahaha!(j/o)

anyway merry christmas!

went to my relatives..
i dont like going to relatives cause i dont like it there.. i only like the goddam angpao they give us hehe.. sometimes i dont wana accept it though (this is horseshit! of course i goddam want it!) cause i feel like im too old to be receiving moolah from them..
oh well, im such a big goddam phony.. if Holden was real and he knew me.. he'll call me the biggest phony and all..
im a phony.. i really am.

phoebe kills me.