d loneliness

i mis the days wen my "barkada" was stil complete.. so many things have happened n kc, from 8 down to 3! sigh.. we used to go out wenever we can and it was fun and now its rily sad coz so many things have changed in such a short time.. gone are the days wen we went to catch the latest movie.. and at school we call the canteen as the basement.. basement tayo.. i mis dat alot.. pakiramdam ko nga dati we wer always at the basement.. eating and kulitan.. dami na talaga nangyari e.. there was a lot of misunderstanding and slowly it separated us all apart.. from gambling problems to plastikan.. der was dis girl kc dat is 'pacute' and we didnt like her dat much.. den from dat more problems came to hunt down the friendship we all had.. and den der was d landian moment dat made matters worst pa! sigh.. der was this time dat i was getting along very well with another group.. i was happy.. but dis year i realyzed na after my friend stoped na her studies.. den the loneliness started.. with only 3 of us left it will never be the same again.. with the 'other' i slowly felt dat i would never belong to dem.. parang singit lang ako diba so i wasnt comfortable din pala and i realyzed na i love my so called 'barkada' kahit na magulo cia.. sigh.. you wudn't know how much u love something until its gone.. ive taken dem for granted and i regret dat alot! if only i knew dat things wud get so complicated i wudn't replace dem for anyone else! and now, everyone is so busy na kc with der own stuff.. its hard to set a date db? everybody has der own lives to live narin kc.. and years from now, hu knows what the future holds for us..